• Sore Throat
• Coughing
• Major Headaches
• Congestion
• School
• Theatre
• People

On the bright side…I am in a better mood than usual. It’s weird. Some of the things happening right now are stressing me out though…

• I don’t wanna see this bitch in my afternoon.
• Obnoxious attention whore.
• It’s so awkward with you around.
• My parents are taking my brother and sister to Disneyland without me.
• My brother and sister can miss school, but when I wanna miss one day…I can’t.
• People be pissin’ me off so much.
• You’re not all that.
• Honesty may be what you stand for, but being rude and a douche should not have to be part of that. <—————
• I hate doing these one acts. So unmotivated.
• I can say sorry when I know I am truly wrong. If not then you better be the one apologizing.
• I can’t wait to leave and not have to deal with these fuckers anymore.
• Family pressuring me about leaving behind music.
• I cried because they’re asking me to leave behind the thing I do best and the thing I love most and cannot live without.
• If I do such a great job at it, then I will be more successful than when i am doing some thing I am a piece of shit at. (Fuck yes)
• Fake, fake, fake, fake, fake ass people.
• Having to see the person you have major shit with. GTFO!
• I just wanna move to Orange County, get away and pursue my singing career while doing my GED in Community.
• It’s okay to not know what I want to do yet. YES.
• I’ve forgotten how kind I am. I’ve forgotten how to be likable.
• I feel such bad vibes from the people I meet.
• This is the longest grudge that I’ve ever held.
• I have a legit reason as to why I am holding it.

Each day gets harder to breathe, to sleep, to wake up, to smile, to move, and to think. I don’t know if singing is enough anymore if it’s this hard to decide to sing as a job. Being happy vs “making a good living” shouldn’t be a hard decision right? Singing!!! Its so easy for me, but then why is it so hard when the adults other their things that make sense. Singing for me shouldn’t have to make sense. It’s my lifeline. Well fuck, I just feel like my heart stops when I even think about doing anything but singing. Everything plus this makes each day unbearable.

• Disneyland was fun! Good start to my Spring Break!

1. I finally got my Mickey Mouse Sorcerer hat that I’ve been wanting since I was 5!
2. I bought too many pins for my own good.
3. I love shopping >:D
4. I wanna relax when I’m at Disneyland, not rush and stress over rides.
5. I got a “Homme Fatale” engraved bracelet!

• Why do I keep getting myself into these situations? It’s depressing…
• I think of YOLO, but I also need to think what is good for me right now.

1. Romance
2. Adventure
3. Risks

(All part of YOLO right? I need that sometimes, but sometimes I feel like it’s not good for me depending on the situation)

• Is it worth it?
• I want to start Gossip Girl season 5…
• I strongly dislike people being so hard on themselves and make their life seem like it’s so bad and no one’s there for them. 

1. I’m sorry, but find some self-respect. I see people complimenting you and all the friends who surround you.
2. STOP being so negative and saying you don’t deserve anything or you’re not good enough for anything.
3. I’ve seen way too many people do that and then ruining their lives, NOT because of others or random events, but because THEY do it to themselves. You’re in High School. LIFE IS NOT OVER!
4. BTW if you think High School is the peak of your life, then you have one sad life. High School ISN’T the best time of your life.

• Juliana actually listens to me. I LOVE her!

1. Late night phone calls
2. Helping each other out
3. Telling each other our lives
4. No judgement

• I am still unable to find what I am looking for…(It’s sad)

1. My words
2. What I want to do
3. How I feel
4. My life

• I wanna enjoy the rest of my Senior Year
• It’s so hard to do
• My mind is jumbled that I don’t even remember my dreams, my memory is fried, and I can’t think straight.
• Sometimes I feel like I am CRAZY!
• I don’t know what I want……(With everything)

Too lazy to write about it. Maybe when my writer’s block goes away. Yeah I have writer’s block even for a Facebook update and shit. My mind is all fucked up lately.

I’ve gained 6-10 Followers in the past week or so. Thank you so much guys! :D Please get to know me and feel free to ask questions or whatever. I am friendly and stuffff!

Today was bad. I was tired all day. Had a discussion with my Step-Dad and Mom. I got hella emotional and overwhelmed. I have plans, but it’s all in the works for my future. I hope it all works out. They then found my twitter and saw shit that I posted about them. I rant about everyone on there. You are not that special for making it on my twitter. xP Anyway, my friend is going to give me the push I need tomorrow to finish up my college shit.

No matter what happens, I am LEAVING San Diego!

Anyway, good night. I am hella tired.

• Ask for help
• Accept responsibility
• Work on yourself
• Take control of time
• Go for it
• Don’t give in to shit
• Release your inhibitions
• Use your imagination outside of your mind

YOLO

I miss Phantom! :( I feel so empty and sad. Those performances made me so happy and whole that I could sleep well and smile. This is my life. That was my last musical in high school. Imma miss it so. I am so scared for the future.